I feel the same way about my mother. She’s not the mother I grew up with and I find it hard to love her now. Many times we forget the mental strain family members and relatives go through taking care of ill person. We must be sensitive to them. She’s a lovely lady but she has no idea where she is or what’s going on you do have to constantly reassure her. She hardly gets any sleep either because the disease keeps her awake. Last time I looked after her she was asking for me to go and find her husband, this went on all night. Peanuts A Charlie Brown Christmas shirt.